1. |
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one way
or \\another\\
I have
\\lost\\ myself
I \\died\\
barricaded
||cut|| off
from myself
I felt //ecstasy//
as I tore out my heart
I //felt// agony
||confronting|| who I was
(oh joy...)
too late
to say ||sorry||
my say's
null and \\void\\
without
||identity||
I'm so
//paranoid//
I know what you think
and I think I \\agree\\
I'm so fucking \\lost\\
I ||wish|| I wasn't me
I just want to
go back
and //replace//
the me that
I was before
[I want to see another future]
[some other way that things could've gone]
[everything leading to this moment]
[really wasn't worth it at all]
I know much is \\lost\\
reading between the lines
all you ||need|| to know
is I once //lost// my mind
I took //selfishly//
I \\asked\\ for more and more
when I saw myself
I ||bled|| out on the floor
(I tried, anyway...)
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2. |
An Echo, An Ache
03:01
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3. |
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The easy answers are the scum that grows between your teeth
With rotting smile and pleasantries your feelings remain unseen
I know this absence isn't anything near what you want to be
It doesn't feel like anything I say means fucking anything
You stare, into, the screen
You stare, and stare, and scream
Under the guise of friendliness you pretend that you're alive
But shades of grey have turned to black, because you're dead inside
Your indiscretions are justified by a hypocrisy
You rape your future with your actions because you refuse to dream
You stare, into, the seams
You stare, and stare, and scream
I tear, apart, the seams
You stare, and stare,
and stare, and stare-
Lost we are amidst this future
without hope of absolution
nowhere will you find salvation
as long as you hold hate in your heart
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4. |
Heart Murmur
02:40
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5. |
Passé Simple
04:44
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Wide awake.
I'm drenched in a cold sweat.
There's no point.
I didn't even ask to be here.
I just want to live my life in peace,
I don't want to be tortured anymore.
So many people losing their faith now.
I've watched so many die this year alone.
I can't breathe.
I'm losing someone else.
Sliding back,
The past is the only place to hide.
Everyone I love suicides someday,
I don't want to lose anyone else.
Every day I'm scared to even wake up.
Afraid that if I do, someone else won't.
I want to know why I even try.
Might be better off not knowing why.
In all my dreams I die in my sleep.
Maybe to compensate, I'm cursed to go on.
Little by little I fall apart,
returning to nostalgic state of mind.
I watched another close friend die,
I couldn't save them, all I can do is cry.
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6. |
Heavy Totem, Empty Heart
04:37
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7. |
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(My last letters,)
(To my missing friends.)
(A pained message,)
(I don't want to send again.)
(I scream into the wind:)
(I'll never forget you.)
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8. |
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